20062006 : Demam selsema (last day on study leave).Bila doc nak bagi mc,terpaksa refuse.esokkan hari pertama..

21062006 : LAPOR DIRI DI UPM SELEPAS 24 BULAN BERCUTI BELAJAR.
(Hebatnya perasaan 'punch in' dan 'punch out' ;) tapi masih demam malah makin teruk :(

next task;
Find out the finest academia for food safety and muscle food processing.

9 Jun 2006 (16:00-18:00)
Tutor meeting wit TNCA (Timbalan Naib Chanselor Akademik), Prof. Dr. Ir. Radin. it was about scholarship for PhD. and aim of university to become a research university. constructive advices. make me teruja!

10 Jun 2006 (8:05 to 19:15)
Kursus Pra Perkahwinan di Pejabat Agama Islam Daerah Hulu Langat. banyak info nak kena digest.
5 min late, terlewat jaga because GER:CRC

11 Jun 2006 (7:55 to 14:30)
2nd day of kursus. continue digesting information. Got the cert ;)

p/s: Ustaz Amin kata perkahwinan itu tidak susah. tapi barat telah jadikan ia sbg satu propaganda. tentang betapa berat komitmen dan tanggungjawab perkahwinan. tapi ustaz kata naluri manusia itu berpasang2an. jadi disebabkan tidak mahu kahwin sebab takut komitmen, takut tanggungjawab, manusia mula terjebak dengan zina dan sebagainya. tapi sebenarnya perkahwinan itu sendiri banyak menyelesaikan masalah sebab ia berikan manusia ketenangan.

hmm..sesuatu untuk difikirkan

malam tadi rasa betul2 panjang.sepatutnya selepas maghrib,kami akan menghantar baju nikah dan sanding ke tailor di keramat wit my besfren.tapi last minit,my fren bg tau tailor tu tak boleh pulak mlm ni,sedara dia kemalangan.so,oklah..nak buat mcm mana,next week.then,saya gril ikan untuk diner.dan dapat msg dr my fren: zura,teman aku balik ampang.xde kawan arr.ok, saya cuma minta 15 minit untuk habiskan my food.on the way balik ampang,byk cerita yang kami share.cerita yang baik2 je.tapi bila on the back to serdang,dia bagitau satu benda yang saya memang tak pernah terfikir dan secara emosi,memang tak boleh saya terima.dia dah tak boleh nak keep this thing herself.she stress.saya cuba faham.ini bukan hal dia tapi hal seseorang yang membebankan dia.saya cuma mampu beri pandangan dan comfort her.kita berdoa pada Allah,agar kita diberi petunjuk dan sentiasa dalam lindunganNya.amin.saya sampai di rumah serdang almost 11pm dengan rasa hati yang sedih.masuk ke rumah, one of my housemate:juju,adik aku kena bawak lari banduan.Ya Tuhan..saya betul2 rasa lemah lutut.tapi terpaksa gagahkan juga.saya tak mahu melemahkan kawan saya.saya minta dia beritahu apa yang telah berlaku."adik aku kata dia terpilih untuk satu kursus ICT di seri iskandar.so,cikgu dia akan bawa dia dan kawan dia pegi sana.tapi nak dijadikan cerita salah seorang mak budak2 ni call parents aku bg tau yang anak dia hilang.tu yang mak ayah aku terus call aku".hmm..cerita dia xde kronologi.saya memang tak faham.dari dua orang budak lelaki yang dibawa ke kursus,tiba2 budak yang hilang tu pulak perempuan.macam mana ni? masa tu saya dan seorang lagi kawan dah terfikir mcm bukan dibawa lari,ini kes sendiri yang mahu lari.kesian betul kawan saya ni,dia call sana sini untuk gather all the information.sampailah around 12am,mak budak perempuan yang hilang tu bg tau yang dia dah jumpa adik kawan saya ni tapi belum jumpa anak dia sendiri tapi sedang menunggu anak dia di lrt BTS.haaa apa ni?makin pening.tapi saya tau kawan saya dah agak lega,dia terus inform family dia (bukan di kl).then, kami decide nak ambil adik dia,tapi dalam masa yang sama adik dia ni memang separuh mati tak mahu kakak dia ni (kawan saya) ambil dia.dia memang takut giler.macam ada yang tak kenakan,kalau betul dia kena bawak lari kenapalah nak takut sampai macam tu sekali.tapi dia memang xde pilihan.then,mak budak perempuan tu hantar adik dia di masjid upm.masa tu around 12.30am.mak budak perempuan tu cerita semuanya pada kawan saya ni.hmm..lain pulak ceritanya.bawak adik dia balik rumah.bagi makan. kawan saya tanya adik dia sampai menangis2..masa tu saya betul2 menahan sabar.sapa tak geram,tak rasa nak mengamuk..rupa2nya adik dia yang rancang semua benda ni.semata2 nak datang kl untuk berseronok.saya rasa inilah rancangan yang paling bodoh pernah saya dengar.maaf andai terkasar.then,tunang kawan saya ambil bawak balik rumah dia.saya pun dah letih.cuci muka,gosok gigi,ambil wuduk dan tidur (mungkin hampir jam 4am)..tapi sebelum mata dapat lelap, saya rasa ini semua macam mimpi dalam jaga.

"Ya Allah..Kau yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang,bantulah hamba-hambamu ini dalam menghadapi apa jua dugaanMu.Amin."

Food 4 Soul 11

Self-Criticism

By Dr. Yusuf Al-Qaradawi

It is necessary for individuals to pause at the end of each day in order to assess themselves and run through their achievements: What have they done in the course of the day? Why have they done it? What have they omitted? And why have they omitted it?

How excellent it would be if this self-criticism were to take place before retiring to bed. This period of self-criticism and appraisal should certainly be counted among one’s moments of progress; it is a moment when one impartially sits as a judge over oneself and reviews yearnings and motivations. It is a moment when the believer appoints, out of conscience, an investigator to probe his or her actions, and a judge to condemn or acquit. In this way, one progresses from the state of “the soul that incites to evil” to the state of “the self-reproaching soul,” which reproaches its owner whenever he or she plunges into sin or falls short of expectations.

It is narrated in one hadith that “it behooves any wise person to have four periods of time” and one of the four periods is “a period in which one engages in self-criticism.”

The Second Caliph, `Umar ibn Al-Khattab said, “Criticize and appraise yourselves before you are criticized and appraised on the Day of Judgment, and weigh out your deeds, before they are weighed out for you.” He himself used to whip his foot at night and say to himself, “Tell me, what have you done today?”

Maimun ibn Mahran, a famous Companion of the Prophet, used to say, “A pious person scrupulously examines and appraises himself more than he would a tyrant ruler and a tight-fisted partner!”

Al-Hasan said, “A believer polices his own self; he criticizes and appraises it for the sake of Allah. Actually, the final appraisal (on the Day of Judgment) may turn mild on some people simply because they were wont to appraise themselves in this life; on the other hand, it may turn out to be rigorous on people who took this life with levity, and thought they would not be called to account.” Al-Hasan went on, explaining how this self-criticism operates in practice.

A tempting thought (or idea) may occur to the believer. He says to himself, ‘By Allah, this is a fascinating idea; I would like to do it! But no, never. Get lost! I am prohibited from executing you!’” This is self-criticism and appraisal before action.

And, “a believer may inadvertently do something. He would then turn to himself and say, ‘What did you mean by this? By Allah, I cannot find an excuse for this. I shall never repeat it, in sha’ Allah!’” This is self-criticism and appraisal after action.

If a believer fails to observe this brief period of soul-checking daily, then that person should at least try to do so once every few days or once a week. In this way, people can draw up the balance sheets of their lives, depicting their spiritual assets and liabilities.

A believer should also have a longer period of this practice at the end of each month and an even longer period at the end of each year, when bidding farewell to one year and preparing for another. This is the time to critically review the past and plan for the future. This is the spiritual equivalent of one’s final accounts for the year.

One blameworthy innovation initiated by the West and, unfortunately, imitated by some Muslims, is the annual birthday celebration, where people are invited to a party and served with delicious food and drink. They light a number of candles, each one representing a year in the lifetime of the celebrant. Gifts are presented and pleasantries exchanged on the occasion. Rather than this blind, useless imitation, it is better for a wise person to seize this occasion—which marks the expiry of one whole year of one’s lifetime—to reconsider and reflect upon his or her life.

At the end of every year, a careful trader applies the brakes in order to measure the past year’s performance and to establish his or her financial position at the end of it. The trader wants to know his or her profit, loss, assets, and liabilities. Likewise, believers ought to call themselves to account for one whole year of their lives that have expired and about which Allah will question them.

A year is not a short time. It is a period of twelve months: a month is, on average, thirty days, each day has twenty-four hours, each hour sixty minutes, and each minute sixty seconds. And every second should be counted as a blessing, a favor from Allah, and a trust in one’s hands. May Allah have mercy on Al-Hasan Al-Basri when he said, “O son of Adam! You are but a bundle of days. As each day passes away, a portion of you vanishes away!"

Abu `Ali ad-Daqqaq used to chant the following lines:

Each day that passes, a portion of me it takes away,On the heart, a bitter taste it leaves, and then glides away.

Source: Time in the Life of a Muslim, Taha Publishers Ltd. 2000 .

..im stuck..cant move even inch :(